I usually try to make my blog a very happy place. Running, cooking, and blogging bring such joy to my life. I guess that might be why I've tried not to bring up too many issues or complain. I also do not like to get too personal sharing issues over the blogoshpere. That being said, I am only bringing this information to heart for advice, encouragement, and really to take a proactive approach to what I am about to share.
For the last two years, my husband and I have been trying to have a baby. While he sometimes feels we were not trying hard enough (I think you get the male hint here:)) We miscarried back in January. This was very disheartening news for us both. My body felt totally off kilter and I had been having my period for two weeks straight. I had taken two home pregnancy tests which were negative and never would have known had I not sought out medical attention. That put a major damper on things until this summer. While we were not not trying, I was not feeling totally prepared emotionally unless the news was positive.
This summer, I have finally been able to relax. I am not beating myself up and am working on being kind to myself. I am finally getting regular exercise in. I am implementing more vegetarian meals into our weekly menu. I am taking good pre-natal vitamins and charting my basal body temperature. My husband and I have been going out on dates and making time for each other. We have totally reconnected as a couple; however, we are still not preggars. After talking with my OBGYN, whether we are trying hard enough or not, she said I really should have been pregnant by now. I am not one to run to the doctor for every cold or ailment. However, rather than continue to be frustrated, I feel that we will be taking a more proactive approach than continuing to "wait and see" or feel like "I'm not trying hard enough." This will probably take some time if I have yet again not conceived this month, as it is too early to know. And again, I will never know unless I seek some sort of medical attention. It will require patience, understanding, and be a bit of a test for us as a couple. Regardless, I feel these are the positive steps we need to take and will help us achieve our goal in creating a family.